Denied

I got three messages this week from potential employers that I didn't get the job, two of which came today, leaving my opportunities almost all but exhausted. Poopy. Maybe I should take this as a sign from heaven to do something else?

No really... I'm serious.

The fact of the matter is that I've been putting a lot of thing on hold until I have the security of a job and an income, like spending money on art supplies, or figuring out when I want to go to grad school... or... well, those are the two relevant things for this blog.

But I could just do them now, and not worry about money. Afterall:

Do not worry then, saying, `What will we eat?' or `What will we drink?' or `What will we wear for clothing?' [...] But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:31-34)

Now, the grumpy, skeptic part of me is thinking: "so, you're just going to sit around and wait for God to do everything for you, eh? Well, when your bank account runs dry, you'll know that you were wrong." Ah yes... encouraging as ever, grumpy skeptic part.

The answer is: No. I'm not just going to sit around. I'm going to do stuff, namely art stuff. I'm going to need to trust that God wants me to be making art, and He'll support me if I do it. Sure... I could be reading this situation completely wrong, but we'll find out, now, won't we?

I've learned in the past that making art takes faith - faith in myself, in the idea or art-piece - and now it I'm beginning to see that making art takes faith in God as well.